dang, i was rt- opps that sounds bad

ok, so member b4 when i said that ib eng ruins ur life? well, it's tru. i just jumped outta bed after dreamin bout ib eng and was like, "wait! idk if that first blog counts cuz it wasn't on the content of Hedda Gabler!!!!! i bttr rite another one just in case!" yep, not only is this crazy class interrupting my dates and messing w/my sense of self, no now it interrupts my sleep more than it did when it was just, "oops, that ppr is due in like 5 hrs." i guess i'll rite on the book as a whole n kinda wrap this up cuz i can't really think of anything else to rite about. this was one of the books that i connected to most. usually when i read books fer eng i'm just like, "that book was dece. but idc about it in reality." this one was like, "dang, i love this book n it actually relates to my life!" like the metamorphasis, i LOVED that book, but i don't connect to the idea of turning in2 a bug cuz i neva did it, i may understand Gregor's feelins bout his situation, but i've neva been a bug. Hedda on the other hand, she reminds me of myself and like that might b bad- idk, i don't think i'm that manipulative, but i def am not just gonna walk away when i want somethin- but it's tru. i like 2 think that i don't seem like a controling b*%^h about Nic, but i spose i'm not the best judge of that. o well. i think the problem is i wouldn't admit it if i were closer 2 her n understood her character bttr, but i can admit that i connect to the book because of her character. i think i'll neva like Thea cuz she's everything i can't stand in a chick (yeah, SURPRIZE i use that word, idk, i don't find it offensive, so w/e). she seems weak, she's a user (Hedda might use men, but at least she's open about it, Thea does it on the sly n the guy thinks she love him! check it- she starts working fer the sherif n he suddenly starts payin more attn to her than to his wife so when the wife croaks she can suddenly move rt in, then she leaves him fer Lovborg whose memory she just kinda leaves behind n starts workin on movin in on George as soon as Lovborg's body is cold- ok so if you didn't spect me to sound like that, get used to it, the p/c-ness that i usually show tends to disappear at like midnite, just like Cinderella's pumkin.) ok, so i'm sposein that ur tired of hearin me rant bout this book n that pretty much wraps up how i feel cept for one thin, I HATE GEORGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He's weak n annoying n doesn't realize what's goin on around him. ur wife flippin hates u buddy! she is thinkin bout the other opportunities out there n if u don't fig out how to wake up outta ur daze she's gonna b gone (well, she ends up gone, but she'd b gone in the sense that she leaves fer another guy or just mentally she does)!!!!! pleze someone give him a clue!!!! ok, now i'm done, ur freakin out bout, "Talor doesn't usually talk like that!!" and ur prolly sick of readin, so i think i can b done too. Thanks Hedda, that was a great story. n thanks Ibsen, you wrote it all down.

maybe it's just me

ok, so is it just me or does it seem like the Maroon 5 song, "Back at Your Door" fits Lovborg and Hedda's relationship? he doesn't seem like he would fit the first verse, but the majority of the rest of the song fits. even after he has Thea he seems like he is stuck on returning to Hedda. Hedda seems slightly skeptical about his coming around, but not as suspicious as the girl in the song. idk, maybe it's just my mood 2day or somthin. the other song that seems like it might work for that relationship is John Mayer's "Back to You". this one fits a little better. the girl in the song sems more like Hedda too. she's kinda mean to the guy n he has to do everything, she takes responsibility for nothing. idk just something to think about. i think relating music to your life is important so, it seems appropriate to relate your eng. to your music too.

hmmm, maybe this works in real life

ok, so i got to thinking about the play after my monologue in 5/6th hr (yeah, my creative response- yeah, the one in a dress), this play works in "real life". I can see parallels to the ppl in my "real life" (even if Kroncke HATES that phrase). ok, if we haven't all figured out that i identify with Hedda, get with the program, it's slightly obvious. As Maya and Shoji both pointed out Nic has some major similarities w/George. Thea actually reminds me of my mother (which makes sense if you know ne thin bout the relationship i have w/my mother). Lovborg and Brack are kinda combined, but i'm not really sure which of three people they are. I'll leave that up to your personal interpretation. it's odd, because when i look @ some stuff in my life all i c is the crazy play! like, dang! (yeah, idc bout what ms.thomas says bout that word.) everything plays out to a sound track of John Mayer (as if there were anything else to describe my life) and the events suddenly make sense to me. my life has its militaristic aspects and the ideas that control comes through other ppl n i don't have ne of my own is pretty tru, or @ least that's how i feel rt now. maybe that's y i chose to so a monologue, it kinda flowed outta me n i 4 real think i captured how she felt cuz i felt it come through the part of me that identifies with her. i mean, i get it, when u think u finally found a way 2 get the control over ur life that u've been yearning 4, u'll do almost ne thin 2 keep it. maybe i'm 2 in 2 this, but this is how i'm feelin. and now, imma shut up b4 i get myself in2 trouble by talkin 2 much.

somethin 2 ponder

so, something i realized when i was doing the annalysis for the paper that we got in class: the inner room is a soft, comfortable place where people interact as people and even friends where as the drawing room is cold, hard and rather formal. when Brack is having brandy with George, it's in the inner room; when Hedda is having dinner with Thea, it's in the inner room; when Thea and George are working at remaking Thea's "child" it's in the inner room. the drawing room is where more formal and harsh scenes happen: when Brack takes Hedda's gun (power) it's in the drawing room; when Brack tells Hedda about Lovborg, it's in the drawing room; when Hedda is mean to Aunt Julie, it's in the drawing room. i'm kinda thinkin that Ibsen did this on purpose because the situations never seem to change until the very end when Hedda kills herself in the inner room, and from a theatre perspective, it's just easier to have someone kill themselves off stage where you can just have a gun shot or something. Definately something to think about, i think that that's a pretty interesting motif.

OK, so the difference is clear, and I'm not talking about the Clear Eyes commericals

OK, so after this weekend, i found the biggest difference between Lovborg and George. George is this kinda dossile, general nice guy who tends to think he's not good enough for Hedda. Lovborg is this kinda imposing, slightly obscene, and has the possibility of being "dangerous" and crazy. now, this isn't really something that should have evaded me in the 1st place, but apparently it did. Lovborg is the stereotypical "bad boy" with a good side and George is the good guy who wouldn't think of doing anything wrong- EVER!!!! as if that's not annoying enough, the idea that Hedda might have been something 4 Lovborg that she's not 4 George seems 2 completely escape George because he's 2 busy worshiping the gound she walks on. now, i don't think that it's proper to "handle" a woman, because a strong woman is a beautiful thing, and we all know that i am ne thin but dependant (i'm mad that you're prolly thinkin of that stupid song, just sing it, get it out- "I-N-D-E-P-E-N-D-A-N-T do u know what that means?"), but Lovborg tends to know how to handle Hedda and she definately doesn't seem to mind at all. on the other hand, she seems annoyed that George does nothing but faun over her n do the "yes ma'am" bit most of the time. that can b the most annoying thing ever, n she seems 2 think so. idk if this was intentional on Ibsen's part, but i think it's definately noticeable. i find it funny that she handles Lovborg right back though, it's a mutually abusive relationship. i'm not really positive y this is such a revalation 2 me, but it hit me really hard this weekend (and idk y that is either). somethin 2 think about i guess...

ok, so IB English ruins ur life

r-rite, so now i'm caught up on bloggin n i can xplain the realization that i came 2 last nite. the combination of a bf who's a nerd/full dip canidate, me who's just weird/a nerd/a full dip candidate, and IB English, ur life is no longer fun, it's ruined. that realizaiton came last nite while i was out w/Nic. some how the creepy George phrase "just think of that" got into the convo n guess what the next 1/2 hr was spent talkin bout? hmmmm, Hedda Gabler. Grrr, so not what life is about. yeah, there might b some creepy similarities btwn some of the characters in the play n the ppl we know in real life, and tru, it's a gr8 play and i luv it, but really, life is so not about 1 of 3 subjects that i take only cuz i'm full dip. o well, i guess that just proves that an IB education is about life and can actually apply to life. wow, i'm beginning 2 sound like Roesch, let's not think about that. i'm kinda sad that there wasn't more to the acts cuz the plot line was good, but i would have liked more detail (yeah, i'm bringin u guys in2 my crazy convo rt now). i think there should have been a way to include the back story bout Lovborg n the mademoiselle (yeah, if you haven't noticed, i don't member her name and i'm WAY 2 lazy to go back n look it up). i think i also would have liked some form of background on Hedda, y the pistols n not riffles? that seems more appropirate fer a general's daughter. o well, her independance and slightly crazy/controling/independant/what-eva-other-adjective-you-can-come-up-with personality reminds me of a few ppl, namely (apparently, as Shoji so nicely pointed out) my own. only, one thing, is that honestly y both my daddy n Nic have ban me from picking up a gun? i had a convo w/Max Parker bout that the other day n we're pretty sure it is. well, this seems 2 b movin 2 flow of consciousness writing, so i think that's a sign i should b done. i g2g fig out how to not have my IB ed so involved n intertwined in my life.

Act 4!!!!!!!!!!

ok, so this act was pretty much the..... well, uk what i mean. r-rite, so i fig'd out that Hedda stands for. she's the independant womyn of society n in the end she gets crushed cuz she can't truly control her life. Brack is male society and tries to control Hedda by ne means necessary, including "blackmale". the fact that he was willing to tell her that she was now truly under his power made him despicable in my eyes. that kind of power is not tru power, that's just lame. the idea that Lovborg got shot (yeah, ik i just totally flipped directions, but i was pretty much done with the other "train of thought".) in the stomach by the mademoiselle. made me just as mad as it made Hedda. that is so incredibly rediculous, i mean, it makes sense cuz of what we heard in act 2, but still. i really wanted him to commit suicide, as bad and "Hedda-esk" as that sounds. i think the idea of control was truly important in this act and it was completely betrayed by the mademoiselle killing Lovborg rahter than him killing himself. o well. i love that Hedda does finally take control of her life and commit suicide though. it was done quite well. as a theatre nerd, i think it could be realized soooooooo well. i mean, really, really well. her playing piano crazily before made it seem as though she were finally free in life and slightly crazy cuz she was so free and she was able to become completely free by gettin rid of the earthly ties/restraints that she had. the only other thing that i noticed was that George was a little 2 eager to work with Thea to recreate her "child". That kinda sounds like he's eager to b with her, that not ok. he should wanna b with Hedda. idk, maybe i'm just paranoid and jumping to conclusions (not that ne 1 in r skool does that) but it just seemed a little suspicious. On top of his overly enthusiastic want for and engrossment in the project, the suggestion that Thea go live with Aunt Julie was a little much, sounds like he's setting up his woman on the side so that it didn't seem suspicious to the general public. o well, i guess even the "nice guy" has the ability to be suspicious and possibly a cheatin uk what.

Act 3 and still lovin it!

Ok, so it's the end of act 3 and i'm still in love w/this crazy play!!! First thought, WHAT IS UP WITH HEDDA TRYING TO GET LOVBORG TO KILL HIMSELF?!?!?! now, that shows power, but wow, i didn't really think that someone could do that! trying to get another person 2 commit suicide is pretty deep and intense. in the words of a dear friend, "what is this chick smoking?!?!?!" i think it's amazing that she would even try to put the idea into his head, but actually giving him the gun and basically telling him she thinks he should kill himself, now that's kinda diff. now, ik how it feels to think that you lost control, but gettin the guy to kill himself is prolly not the best thing to do. it was one thing to get him to go back to drinking (ik how that feels, they finally are gettin better n stop doing w/e it was that was bad 4 them, but u just want them to go back to bein the person they were b4), but killing himself? really. not 2 cool. w/e happened to loving ur friends more than life itself? idk. lets back track in the act though. so the thing with Brack n Hedda was a little odd. and i'm a little concerend with the whole "cock" thing. a one cock walk... are we implyin that George is not a man? that's the impression that i got and that's just not cool. just cuz he's kind, caring, and scatter brained (maybe overly naive) doesn't make him ne less a man. what does he constantly have to b playing with guns, cursing, spittin, n doin other stereotypical guy things? i'd prefer George over any of the other guys in the play, personally. (prolly a little tmi there, but o well.) i think the thing that was the most weird was the idea that George didn't want ne one 2 know that he had the manuscrpit and that he didn't want Hedda 2 read it. was he planning on stealing parts of it or something? idk. i guess that's the wonder of Hedda Gabler well, we'll see.