OMG, AIDS

ok, so i'm not really doin so well (i'm actually being kept home from school tomorrow) so i'm gonna make this quick. So J'mag, Alyia, and i wore AIDS shirts to raise awareness on World AIDS day. It didn't go as well as we had hoped. I had a couple people ask me about the shirt and why Africa wasn't all the same color to which i had to xplain about choroplethic maps and how they work (i think we raised awareness about geography not AIDS). otherwise nothing really changed. I'm sure the shirt was read, but idk... AIDS is now nbd i guess. kinda sad that so many people are dying and the old age cohort is becoming affected by it due to unforeseen reasons and no one really cares too much. hopefully some one will read my blog and go "old people are not becoming more infected!!!" and go reasearch it.

OMG i fell asleep! dude, this is gonna b late. dang, now what?

wraping up the end

yeah, that pun was intended, if u don't get it, wait and think about it a sec....... ok now, yeah, ok.

so over all, i liked Lysistrata and i liked it even more after c-in The Boycott. i think that the language was not as bad as i was expecting and the puns weren't as good as i was hoping for, but decently indecent for a high school class. i think i'll prolly take this book to st8 4n6 n we'll get a reading outta it, we have some gr8 actors and almost all 4n6 n db8 kids have dirty minds (generally speaking, not the rule, but tends 2 b a commonality) so the acting will b enhanced by the fast interpretation of the puns. i really liked that the book was easily interpreted through many lenses, historical, marxist, feminist, etc. i like that it was a happy medium of the other 2 plays we read; the womyn weren't the catty, annoying, rather weak girls that the Alba daughters were, and none of them were the globally manipulative, my-way-or-the-highway person that Hedda was. essentially, i have mostly good things to say about the book, i liked it (this is honestly a good yr, last yr i think i liked 2 books- The Metamorphasis and Night). so, even though this seems really short for me, this is about it. i really think that the imagery inhanced the play because we, as readers, had to interpret and create mental images to understand the play and it was easy to do that because of Aristophanes' language and use of imagery. i loved the puns and metaphors, they made me laugh. and i liked how it was so diverse in it's ability to b interpreted. ok, this is me being officially finished, can't wait fer the next book.

extended metaphor (ha ha, i crack myself up)

ok, so since i've kinda run outta things to comment on i'll do my last commentary-esk blog on the extended metaphor of the town and the yarn. ok, so i c this in a marxist lite. first, the womyn are the proletariat rising up against the dirty, capitalist bourgeoisie, the men. next, the yarn that these womyn want to spin is a utpoia and the explaination of how to spin yarn is the plan for creating this utopia. scrubbing it in a public bath can mean exposing all the corruption of the current government to the people so that they know what's really going on, kinda like airing ur dirty laundry. cudgeling the leeches and vermen is expelling the corrupt officials from office and making sure the problem won't repeat itself and cause the yarn to unravel because of imperfections. the next step is essentially getting the people on the same level, making them equal like standard distribution of land. then culling the colonies is opening up free trade so that the econ can survive and flourish and even brining all the communist states together to help revolutionize the rest of the world to create a tru workers' paradise. the idea that this is being done by womyn fits in with communism too cuz hey were all about equality of all ppl n they tended to allow womyn to do more and hold higher, bttr positions. suddenly i'm feeling that the book could be a key for communist revolution all over. there are a lot of places where u can do a marxist reading and get even more outta this play. it sounds like the steps that should have been taken by Kruschev after gettin rid of Stalin to truly insure the survival of the USSR and communism (rather that Stalinism) are in this play. it's unfortunate that these leaders weren't up on their classic greek plays and IB english cuz they may still have power and not b the "bad guys" in our history books.

** disclaimer: i am not a commi, just a historical thinker and an opportunist

double dehumanization

r-rite so by now, we've all figured out that Peace in the end is not only a concept, but a woman, and a really pretty one at that. the men's reaction to this is um, enthusiastic to say the least. now, i've talked about this b4, but it really bothers me n imma xplain it again and in bttr depth. 1st there's the standard thing we look out for (well, i look out for as a "femanazi"), dehumanization and degradation of womyn. this is easily seen in the way that the men goggle her and her naked body. they know nothing but that they like what they see, she is a body, a piece of a&$ if you will. she doesn't have an opinion or a vote or even a brain, she's just flesh. the men continue this kind of treatment as they split her up and argue over who gets the "mountains" and legs and "gulfs". now, it's bad for this 2 happen @ all, but in a book where the theme is the power of womyn? really, that's sad. now, don't worry, the men get their turn. i think it's degrading and dehumanizing that the men are portrayed as animals so in need of a good screwing session that they will agree to anything and are drueling over Peace like dogs over a porter house steak. now we can read further into the text. pg 104 is about nothing but Peace's butte, i mean the Promonyory of Pylos. here we see that these men can't talk about real problems because their minds r 2 busy w/um, the Netherlands. (yeah, bad pun, but u should b usewd 2 it by now.) the idea that they argue about geography over a female's geography and are thinking about nothing but biology is really sad and over simplifies the male mind (ok, maybe not, but imma try 2 stay positive n try not 2 offened ne more guys than i already have). in essence, these men have been reduced to animal status and their higher thinking skill have been removed, they are no longer humans with a frontal lobe that allows decision making, but rather animals driven by instinct to continue the species. in general, i think this was a poor way to end the book and a sad interpreation of a book that had a powerful message.

pg 92 and phallus

ok, so i'd like 2 start out with an insite in2 my twisted mind/ pop culture refrence. so everytime i read the word "erection" i can't help but think about this Adam and Andrew song, "Emo Kid". In the song there's a line that says "hearing songs about getting dumped give me an erection"and everytime i read "erection" in this book i wanna start singing the song. ok, that's enough on that.

ok, so quick historical idea and slight queer reading (maybe, not sure). ok, so back when this was written there was supposed to have been a lot of "gay" activity and it was supposed to have been widely accepted, so here's the quesiton, was the commissioner gay? so he throws open the Sparten's cloak to reveal his erection (emo kid song) and then says that he has one 2 n shows the Spartan. then there's a lot of talk about things bein "up in the air" and going to explode. now, i think this is something to b xplored. the guys of this time had no problem being open and talkin bout their personal um, problems, showing vulnerability, which is something that's considered girly or weak or even "gay" now. if a guy is really emotional he's accused of being gay. now these men are a change, they are militaristic and really matcho by that standard, but then they sit around and talk about their erections and how they feel because of their womyn not screwing them?! major twist, i think. i think this may b used to advocate that being gay is not a matter of being weak or less manly, but merely likeing the same sex as you. this would be especially tru if the commissioner was gay because he seems 2 b the guy w/the most power. idk, i think this could b a poweful idea to use and re-read the book with. i mean it is said that Greek society viewed homosexual activity VERY differently than our society does, but i think this could quite possibly b a text 2 use 2 bring back that acceptance.

imagery and Myrrhine

ok, so here's the poop on the scene with Myrrhine and Kinesias, well my interpretation of the poop ne way (yeah, i just used MASH phrases). so first of all the imagery in this scene was incredible, kind of akward (esp. to read in class) but uncredible nonetheless. the idea that Aristophanes was able to create such a vivid scene for us merely with words is an incredible thing 2 me. i mean you can picture this going down in your mind. he's all hot and bothered and she finally comes out and then she takes forever, going back into the Akropolis (sp?) multiple times and making him wait longer only to roll out of bed w/o actually giving him anything more than a kiss and maybe a glimpse of flesh, only making his condition worse. kind of low, but aparently not low enough, o that was a bad one, my fault.

re-reading this after finishing the book does cause me to notice something though, Myrrhine uses the word "Peace" with a capital "P". Here's the rub (o, another bad one, gotta watch that), Peace is a woman, so when she says, "no cheating about the Peace," does she mean that he shouldn't b cheatin on her with this amazingly gorgious woman? on that question i kind of think that he wouldn't seein as he defends the woman who left him high and dry (o, srry) because the Koriopahaos (sp?) essentially calls her a mean hearted slut. idk, i think idea is interesting, i mean the guys drule of Peace at the end and argue about splitting her up, so is that what she's talking about?

expansion of the comment and quazi-historian review of the play

ok, so i just commented on J'mag's blog and thought, wow, i should expound on that in my own blog cuz it's totally a mini comentary! ok, so here it is:

J'mag asked the question why didn't the womyn use their children as a means of stopping the war rather than abstaining from sex. so, historical context: Greek society was militaristic, generally speaking (yeah, i just brought geography into it!). because they lived in a militraristic society, fighting was a common thing and so was the idea that the men would have stopped fighting based on the affect that it had on their children and that their children missed them is kind of rediculous. the idea of military service wasn't like it is 2day. they didn't think, omg he's gonna have 2 go 2 war and he's gonna get shot and killed! no, these ppl thought, ok, time 4 u 2 sign up n go fight n if u die, well, that's the god's will. ok, maybe they weren't that cruel, but it wan't like 2day that u sign up for the military and maybe go to war, u signed up n u went n u were IN THE ARMY no reserves stuff. the society didn't function around the idea of loss of life like we do, they were kinda like Stalin in that regard, it was that winning of the war, not the loss of life that they cared about. (i just realized how many of us talked about Stalin in these blogs, hmm, IB Global anyone?) i think that's a big difference in our reading of the play and the society that it was written for. they thought of military service as normal and we think of it as sacrificial.

deconstruction

r-rite, so i haven't been able to get these womyn's oath outta my mind, so i'll share my ideas on it w/u n c what u think. first, the idea of the cup... all i can think of is The Da Vinci Code. so in there it talks about the picture of the last supper and how the woman in there is Mary and how there are symbols in there about fertility. etc. so the "U" or "V" shaped space is supposed 2 b like a woman's uterus. now, a cup is shaped like a "U" and thus we can interpret the cup to b like the uterus of the woman taking the oath. now, in talkin w/u guys the water that "taints" the wine in the cup has 2 possible meanings, sperm or a penis. either way it's symbolic of a guy tainting the uterus. i really think that the line "who moves my direction in erection" is a clever line. really, not only does it rhyme it gets the poiont across really well. it communicates "i won't screw ne body" w/o blatently saying it. i think that the rest of the oath creates great imagery and is icily mean. i can see the images of the womyn being complete suductresses (is that a word?) and then telling their husbands, "ik i'm hot, but not for you rt now, maybe later." i think that's brilliant on the part of Aristophanes, he creates imagery in a play that's meant to b preformed, thus word images inside physical images. brilliant! i think that adds a lot to a play, the audience suddenly gets a lot of brain imput and that means at least part of it sticks and they process more leaving a greater impression! i also like the amount of aliteration that he uses is great. the double sounds make people remember what they're hearing bttr. i think it was a great way to get the idea and theme of the play's plot out there and stuck in the minds of the audience.

The Boycott (part one)

ok, so Nic took me 2 c the Boycott (yeah, he took me cuz i was plannin on sluffin off that nite rather than going, but when he WANTED to go to c a play i couldn't say no) and i thought it was AMAZING, like 4 real, great play!

ok, so first of all, splitting the name Lysistrata into a first and last name was genious! Next, she did a great job turning the scene between Kenisis and Myrnie into the scene between Jack and Izzy. i think she did a good job incorperating modern humor into that scene 2, if uk what i mean. the frog, crazy insane genious!!!!! i love that that thing totally hopped and poped all ovr!!!! 4 real!! i was kinda surpirzed at the performance though, it was kinda a 4N6 performance on seriods cuz it had lights n sound that came through speakers rather than her makin it herself, but yeah, it was pretty funny, i had a hard time concentratin on the play as i would a play and found myself kinda kritiking (yeah, i use the db8 spelling, get ovr it) it in my mind- which left me feelin kinda bad. (we'll get to that in part 2 just cuz i don't feel that i can put the good and bad parts of my Boycott exploration together.) next, i think the way that she staged it was really smart. all of her props were interactive and that adds something. i'm not really sure how to xplain it, maybe it's a theatre nerd thin, but yeah, it was pretty cool 2 c her bring inaimate obj's to life. she did some unexpected thin's 2 like the crazy rant about how not havin sex revolutionized the world and the way that parents and kids interact. i thought that was cool. i liked that she kinda modeled the prez after JFK (rt dwn to the cheatin) and the vice prez after Cheney. the idea of reese witherspoon (yeah, i can't spell her name, i don't really care) was kinda funny in my eyes, but yeah. i guess that's about it, i mean it was good theatre and it used Lysistrata as the base so it was a good connection of our lit n some modern culture.

The Boycott part 2 (you'll understand in a minute)

So, i told u all the awesome thin's that i think were perfectly amazing, now i have a couple complaints, just minor ones though.

ok, numero 1
this chick changed the speaker of the house back in to a man, womyn finally got the job and then she goes and reverts?!?! no comprendo!!!!! correct me if i'm wrong, but i'm pretty sure this is a book that has the power of womyn as a major theme and this is what she does?!?! not ok in my eyes.

numero 2
she obviously doesn't know how a real press confrence works. ppl don't just ask questions willy nilly b4 the speaker gives their little prepared speech. Stupid Tufalooans.

numero 3
um, i've never had amathis, or what ever booze they were lookin for from Lincoln, but from what i understand about alcohol and drugs (uk, reasearch in health class, etc.), LSD/acid type things cause those types of hellucinations, not being drunk as a skunk.

That's it, as i said in part 1, i really loved the play, but i really had 2 get those thin's off my chest.

First Impressions of Lysistrata

r-rite, so to start this off i'm going to inform u of the sad fact that debaters (now on refered to as db8rs) are relitively dirty minded people. we all know that i'm a db8r and so i need say no more. now, i'm thinking that Lysistrata is definately a book that my team (and its extended family at a couple other skools) should read together. it's incredibly entertaining because of the puns that are included and the slightly dirty nature of those puns. i wasn't surprized at first, but slowly i got to the point that all i could think was "i don't believe he wrote that!!!" the inability of the womyn in the story to wrap their minds around the idea that they wouldn't b having sex for a while kind of floored me. stereotypically it's the guy that u c having issues cuz he's not "gettin ne" but hearin the womyn complain about not screwing their husband? that's pretty rare. i did think the opening was interesting because the womyn seem not to really pay attention to to much that Lysistrata says. first they don't show up 4 the meeting and then they oppose most of what she says. something about that seems odd 2 me. normally, the "leader" is followed from the beginning and this time they're all being nay sayers cept the chick from the "podunk town up north" (thanks Long, and yeah, that is how i'm gonna refer to Sparta since Lampito talks like an uneducated chick from a farm). idk, maybe it's just me, but aren't leaders spose 2 b so carismatic that you can't help but get behind them? (and i'm gonna yell at the 1st person who says Obama there cuz the election is gonna b over by time ne 1 reads this entry.) o well, i guess that's it for now cuz i can't really think of ne thin else 2 say at this point in the book cuz nothin's really happened yet.

dang, i was rt- opps that sounds bad

ok, so member b4 when i said that ib eng ruins ur life? well, it's tru. i just jumped outta bed after dreamin bout ib eng and was like, "wait! idk if that first blog counts cuz it wasn't on the content of Hedda Gabler!!!!! i bttr rite another one just in case!" yep, not only is this crazy class interrupting my dates and messing w/my sense of self, no now it interrupts my sleep more than it did when it was just, "oops, that ppr is due in like 5 hrs." i guess i'll rite on the book as a whole n kinda wrap this up cuz i can't really think of anything else to rite about. this was one of the books that i connected to most. usually when i read books fer eng i'm just like, "that book was dece. but idc about it in reality." this one was like, "dang, i love this book n it actually relates to my life!" like the metamorphasis, i LOVED that book, but i don't connect to the idea of turning in2 a bug cuz i neva did it, i may understand Gregor's feelins bout his situation, but i've neva been a bug. Hedda on the other hand, she reminds me of myself and like that might b bad- idk, i don't think i'm that manipulative, but i def am not just gonna walk away when i want somethin- but it's tru. i like 2 think that i don't seem like a controling b*%^h about Nic, but i spose i'm not the best judge of that. o well. i think the problem is i wouldn't admit it if i were closer 2 her n understood her character bttr, but i can admit that i connect to the book because of her character. i think i'll neva like Thea cuz she's everything i can't stand in a chick (yeah, SURPRIZE i use that word, idk, i don't find it offensive, so w/e). she seems weak, she's a user (Hedda might use men, but at least she's open about it, Thea does it on the sly n the guy thinks she love him! check it- she starts working fer the sherif n he suddenly starts payin more attn to her than to his wife so when the wife croaks she can suddenly move rt in, then she leaves him fer Lovborg whose memory she just kinda leaves behind n starts workin on movin in on George as soon as Lovborg's body is cold- ok so if you didn't spect me to sound like that, get used to it, the p/c-ness that i usually show tends to disappear at like midnite, just like Cinderella's pumkin.) ok, so i'm sposein that ur tired of hearin me rant bout this book n that pretty much wraps up how i feel cept for one thin, I HATE GEORGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He's weak n annoying n doesn't realize what's goin on around him. ur wife flippin hates u buddy! she is thinkin bout the other opportunities out there n if u don't fig out how to wake up outta ur daze she's gonna b gone (well, she ends up gone, but she'd b gone in the sense that she leaves fer another guy or just mentally she does)!!!!! pleze someone give him a clue!!!! ok, now i'm done, ur freakin out bout, "Talor doesn't usually talk like that!!" and ur prolly sick of readin, so i think i can b done too. Thanks Hedda, that was a great story. n thanks Ibsen, you wrote it all down.

maybe it's just me

ok, so is it just me or does it seem like the Maroon 5 song, "Back at Your Door" fits Lovborg and Hedda's relationship? he doesn't seem like he would fit the first verse, but the majority of the rest of the song fits. even after he has Thea he seems like he is stuck on returning to Hedda. Hedda seems slightly skeptical about his coming around, but not as suspicious as the girl in the song. idk, maybe it's just my mood 2day or somthin. the other song that seems like it might work for that relationship is John Mayer's "Back to You". this one fits a little better. the girl in the song sems more like Hedda too. she's kinda mean to the guy n he has to do everything, she takes responsibility for nothing. idk just something to think about. i think relating music to your life is important so, it seems appropriate to relate your eng. to your music too.

hmmm, maybe this works in real life

ok, so i got to thinking about the play after my monologue in 5/6th hr (yeah, my creative response- yeah, the one in a dress), this play works in "real life". I can see parallels to the ppl in my "real life" (even if Kroncke HATES that phrase). ok, if we haven't all figured out that i identify with Hedda, get with the program, it's slightly obvious. As Maya and Shoji both pointed out Nic has some major similarities w/George. Thea actually reminds me of my mother (which makes sense if you know ne thin bout the relationship i have w/my mother). Lovborg and Brack are kinda combined, but i'm not really sure which of three people they are. I'll leave that up to your personal interpretation. it's odd, because when i look @ some stuff in my life all i c is the crazy play! like, dang! (yeah, idc bout what ms.thomas says bout that word.) everything plays out to a sound track of John Mayer (as if there were anything else to describe my life) and the events suddenly make sense to me. my life has its militaristic aspects and the ideas that control comes through other ppl n i don't have ne of my own is pretty tru, or @ least that's how i feel rt now. maybe that's y i chose to so a monologue, it kinda flowed outta me n i 4 real think i captured how she felt cuz i felt it come through the part of me that identifies with her. i mean, i get it, when u think u finally found a way 2 get the control over ur life that u've been yearning 4, u'll do almost ne thin 2 keep it. maybe i'm 2 in 2 this, but this is how i'm feelin. and now, imma shut up b4 i get myself in2 trouble by talkin 2 much.

somethin 2 ponder

so, something i realized when i was doing the annalysis for the paper that we got in class: the inner room is a soft, comfortable place where people interact as people and even friends where as the drawing room is cold, hard and rather formal. when Brack is having brandy with George, it's in the inner room; when Hedda is having dinner with Thea, it's in the inner room; when Thea and George are working at remaking Thea's "child" it's in the inner room. the drawing room is where more formal and harsh scenes happen: when Brack takes Hedda's gun (power) it's in the drawing room; when Brack tells Hedda about Lovborg, it's in the drawing room; when Hedda is mean to Aunt Julie, it's in the drawing room. i'm kinda thinkin that Ibsen did this on purpose because the situations never seem to change until the very end when Hedda kills herself in the inner room, and from a theatre perspective, it's just easier to have someone kill themselves off stage where you can just have a gun shot or something. Definately something to think about, i think that that's a pretty interesting motif.

OK, so the difference is clear, and I'm not talking about the Clear Eyes commericals

OK, so after this weekend, i found the biggest difference between Lovborg and George. George is this kinda dossile, general nice guy who tends to think he's not good enough for Hedda. Lovborg is this kinda imposing, slightly obscene, and has the possibility of being "dangerous" and crazy. now, this isn't really something that should have evaded me in the 1st place, but apparently it did. Lovborg is the stereotypical "bad boy" with a good side and George is the good guy who wouldn't think of doing anything wrong- EVER!!!! as if that's not annoying enough, the idea that Hedda might have been something 4 Lovborg that she's not 4 George seems 2 completely escape George because he's 2 busy worshiping the gound she walks on. now, i don't think that it's proper to "handle" a woman, because a strong woman is a beautiful thing, and we all know that i am ne thin but dependant (i'm mad that you're prolly thinkin of that stupid song, just sing it, get it out- "I-N-D-E-P-E-N-D-A-N-T do u know what that means?"), but Lovborg tends to know how to handle Hedda and she definately doesn't seem to mind at all. on the other hand, she seems annoyed that George does nothing but faun over her n do the "yes ma'am" bit most of the time. that can b the most annoying thing ever, n she seems 2 think so. idk if this was intentional on Ibsen's part, but i think it's definately noticeable. i find it funny that she handles Lovborg right back though, it's a mutually abusive relationship. i'm not really positive y this is such a revalation 2 me, but it hit me really hard this weekend (and idk y that is either). somethin 2 think about i guess...

ok, so IB English ruins ur life

r-rite, so now i'm caught up on bloggin n i can xplain the realization that i came 2 last nite. the combination of a bf who's a nerd/full dip canidate, me who's just weird/a nerd/a full dip candidate, and IB English, ur life is no longer fun, it's ruined. that realizaiton came last nite while i was out w/Nic. some how the creepy George phrase "just think of that" got into the convo n guess what the next 1/2 hr was spent talkin bout? hmmmm, Hedda Gabler. Grrr, so not what life is about. yeah, there might b some creepy similarities btwn some of the characters in the play n the ppl we know in real life, and tru, it's a gr8 play and i luv it, but really, life is so not about 1 of 3 subjects that i take only cuz i'm full dip. o well, i guess that just proves that an IB education is about life and can actually apply to life. wow, i'm beginning 2 sound like Roesch, let's not think about that. i'm kinda sad that there wasn't more to the acts cuz the plot line was good, but i would have liked more detail (yeah, i'm bringin u guys in2 my crazy convo rt now). i think there should have been a way to include the back story bout Lovborg n the mademoiselle (yeah, if you haven't noticed, i don't member her name and i'm WAY 2 lazy to go back n look it up). i think i also would have liked some form of background on Hedda, y the pistols n not riffles? that seems more appropirate fer a general's daughter. o well, her independance and slightly crazy/controling/independant/what-eva-other-adjective-you-can-come-up-with personality reminds me of a few ppl, namely (apparently, as Shoji so nicely pointed out) my own. only, one thing, is that honestly y both my daddy n Nic have ban me from picking up a gun? i had a convo w/Max Parker bout that the other day n we're pretty sure it is. well, this seems 2 b movin 2 flow of consciousness writing, so i think that's a sign i should b done. i g2g fig out how to not have my IB ed so involved n intertwined in my life.

Act 4!!!!!!!!!!

ok, so this act was pretty much the..... well, uk what i mean. r-rite, so i fig'd out that Hedda stands for. she's the independant womyn of society n in the end she gets crushed cuz she can't truly control her life. Brack is male society and tries to control Hedda by ne means necessary, including "blackmale". the fact that he was willing to tell her that she was now truly under his power made him despicable in my eyes. that kind of power is not tru power, that's just lame. the idea that Lovborg got shot (yeah, ik i just totally flipped directions, but i was pretty much done with the other "train of thought".) in the stomach by the mademoiselle. made me just as mad as it made Hedda. that is so incredibly rediculous, i mean, it makes sense cuz of what we heard in act 2, but still. i really wanted him to commit suicide, as bad and "Hedda-esk" as that sounds. i think the idea of control was truly important in this act and it was completely betrayed by the mademoiselle killing Lovborg rahter than him killing himself. o well. i love that Hedda does finally take control of her life and commit suicide though. it was done quite well. as a theatre nerd, i think it could be realized soooooooo well. i mean, really, really well. her playing piano crazily before made it seem as though she were finally free in life and slightly crazy cuz she was so free and she was able to become completely free by gettin rid of the earthly ties/restraints that she had. the only other thing that i noticed was that George was a little 2 eager to work with Thea to recreate her "child". That kinda sounds like he's eager to b with her, that not ok. he should wanna b with Hedda. idk, maybe i'm just paranoid and jumping to conclusions (not that ne 1 in r skool does that) but it just seemed a little suspicious. On top of his overly enthusiastic want for and engrossment in the project, the suggestion that Thea go live with Aunt Julie was a little much, sounds like he's setting up his woman on the side so that it didn't seem suspicious to the general public. o well, i guess even the "nice guy" has the ability to be suspicious and possibly a cheatin uk what.

Act 3 and still lovin it!

Ok, so it's the end of act 3 and i'm still in love w/this crazy play!!! First thought, WHAT IS UP WITH HEDDA TRYING TO GET LOVBORG TO KILL HIMSELF?!?!?! now, that shows power, but wow, i didn't really think that someone could do that! trying to get another person 2 commit suicide is pretty deep and intense. in the words of a dear friend, "what is this chick smoking?!?!?!" i think it's amazing that she would even try to put the idea into his head, but actually giving him the gun and basically telling him she thinks he should kill himself, now that's kinda diff. now, ik how it feels to think that you lost control, but gettin the guy to kill himself is prolly not the best thing to do. it was one thing to get him to go back to drinking (ik how that feels, they finally are gettin better n stop doing w/e it was that was bad 4 them, but u just want them to go back to bein the person they were b4), but killing himself? really. not 2 cool. w/e happened to loving ur friends more than life itself? idk. lets back track in the act though. so the thing with Brack n Hedda was a little odd. and i'm a little concerend with the whole "cock" thing. a one cock walk... are we implyin that George is not a man? that's the impression that i got and that's just not cool. just cuz he's kind, caring, and scatter brained (maybe overly naive) doesn't make him ne less a man. what does he constantly have to b playing with guns, cursing, spittin, n doin other stereotypical guy things? i'd prefer George over any of the other guys in the play, personally. (prolly a little tmi there, but o well.) i think the thing that was the most weird was the idea that George didn't want ne one 2 know that he had the manuscrpit and that he didn't want Hedda 2 read it. was he planning on stealing parts of it or something? idk. i guess that's the wonder of Hedda Gabler well, we'll see.

End of Act 2 and WOAH is all i have 2 say!

HC!!! If Hedda and Brack don't have something going on, i think i should give up my ideas of being a decent mind/foreshadowing reader. 4 real! This lady is just a tad loose i think. In addition, is it creepy that i'm reading some kinky sexual stuff with the idea of "triangular arrangements" and such?? I'm thinking that probably was not the most couth thing 4 the time. Hedda becomes more and more ruthless with each act 2!!! really! the comment about "these eternal aunts" sounds like she's waiting 4 them 2 die and thinkin they lived 2 long! if that's not mean, idk what is! i do have to say that i connect with her comment on page 254 when she says, "Well, it's- these things come over me, just like that, suddenly. Ans I can't hold back. Oh, I don't know myself how to explain it." i feel like that a lot!!! i think i might have actually told Nic something very similar at one point in time. Any way, inside thoughts coming out usually isn't a very good thing, it gets u in trouble. i think Hedda might have somethin goin on with Lovborg too. She's a little 2 cozy with him and plays around 2 much not to be just slightly in love with him. and the way that she treats Thea kinda leads me 2 believe that 2. idk. we'll see. i was kinda surprized at that whole thing with the punch though. she knows Lovborg was an alcoholic n once an alcoholic always an alcoholic. y would she put him in that situation? is she just tryin 2 ruin the thing btwn Thea and Lovborg or what? no comprendo mes amis!! (yeah, ik i totally combined languages there.) idk, if i knew someone who cleaned themselves up i wouldn't b pushin them back 2 what they messed up their lives with, that just doesn't make sense, unless it really is just to see if she can control him, then i guess i get it, but it's still not 2 cool. the dialogue on the last pg of the act kinda makes me wonder what exactly she's doing with Tesman, it just doesn't make sense to me. so she admits that she doesn't really lone him, she admits he's basically going no where near the place she wants to b, but yet she married him AND she complains about it a lot! That does bring me to a final thought though, what on the flippin green earth is Tesman doing?!?!?! did he not have ANY other gf's besides Hedda? if he did, no wonder he didn't marry them, he couldn't take a hint, and he not, no wonder he was extatic when he hooked Hedda!! WHAT IS THIS GUY THINKING; TELLING A WOMAN SHE'S GETTING FAT?!?!?!?!?! She obviously has issues w/this idea (pregnancy? i think so, but still. it's an even worse idea to tell a pregnant woman she's getting fat, that's just mean.) but no, he can't take the hint, he just keeps going!!! SHUT UP ALREADY!!!! That's one instance in which i have 2 say, poor Hedda.

Hedda Gabbler Ideas

So, i am totally in love (yeah, not just luv, but LOVE) with this play so far!!! the problem is, being an IB Theatre 2 student, that means i totally wanna c this thing realized!!! like 4 real!!! someone in my crazy class has 2 do it 4 their independant project!!!!! it'd b gr8!!!! serious!!! and the best part, this is the FIRST (yeah, that big that i spelled it out) time i've EVER wanted to act!!! i 4 real wanna play Hedda!!! her character is really great. not in the "o, she's so nice way", but in the "wow, she's completely underhanded and ruthless!!!!" way! she actually reminds me a little of a girl in congress- any "senators" out there know who i mean?- i mean, in a not so great way. i don't really picture her like the playwright describes her though. i c Hedda being a tall red head with a turned up nose. she totally grew up a spoiled navy brat, her dad (in the realization in my mind) is an admiral who gives her everything she wants when he's home and yells at her mother for not doing so when he's not home. idk, that just seems to b the thing fer her to have grown up as, well, with the way she acts now. idk, i like it. the idea that this crazy, spoiled lady owns guns is GR8 2!!! like, she totally seems like the crazy lady who would shoot her husband for not doing what she wanted, or @ least rt now she does! dang, i gotta get back to reading!

TESTING TESTING- Is Anyone Out There?!

So I got the best story about IB students the other day. Here it is....

A friend was speaking with a military person the other day and he told her Eva's quote about war, "War is state sponsored terrorism." He laughed, the military lady looked at him very seriously and said, "This is a problem. We believe that high school students are all communist and we hope that they will grow out of it and grow up to be republicans."

This bothered me slightly, but the more I thought about the first part of the statement, the more I realized we might just have communist tendencies. I wonder if there are any communists in Hedda Gabler, Marxist Reading anyone?